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Randy Gibbs Transcript

Jenny Gibbs Bankston suffered silently with postpartum depression.

On December 19, 2007, she took the life of her 7-week-old son and then her own.

The next couple days then we were able to go through her computer and look at, kind of, what she was up to the last few weeks. And saw on her searches that she had searched for postpartum depression, postpartum depression illness, postpartum depression myths, symptoms, and all kinds of things. She was on all these various websites, postpartum depression websites.

At that moment, we were like – she was trying to get help, she was trying to figure out what was going on and we need to try to, we need to, if we can, we need to try to help this from happening to other people and other families.

Jenny’s Light is her legacy.

She was just so ashamed to tell anybody how she felt, you know, and I’m sure she had intrusive thoughts 24 hours a day and women don’t want to tell, moms don’t want to tell people they’re thinking of harming their baby or they have those thoughts. They don’t want to get their baby taken away, they don’t want to be told that they’re not a good mom.

We were like – what are we gonna do here to, we can’t just sit here and wait until we hear about the next one in the newspaper without trying to get information. I think what really put it over the top was when we looked through Jenny’s computer and saw that she had been looking for postpartum depression information and all kinds of things about postpartum depression and perinatal mood disorders. We saw that she was looking for that and she may or may not have found what she was looking for but if there’s just one more, if we could make something that maybe has some other information than what’s out there right now, if she would’ve seen that, maybe she would have told somebody. Maybe she’d have read some of the stories and gotten help.

We’ve gotten a few, we’ve gotten a bunch, a whole bunch, like probably over 30 or 40 now of just people that were women at home with their baby on their computer during the day or at night, middle of the night, and just looking for an answer, looking for why, has anyone else felt what they’ve felt, and they came across our website. And sometimes they’ll just email a short kind of description and say I’m looking for help, can you reach me and show me where to go for this help and I’ll wait for your email or phone call. And sometimes the emails are like 10 pages long and just a huge description of every day basically since the day they gave birth until a few months later and what they go through at night. and the word hurt or hurt the baby keep getting repeated throughout the emails – that’s one thing they have in common – thoughts and bad thoughts and bad mom and hurt the baby, those kind of words keep coming up over and over in these emails. But then in the end they say they found the stories on jenny’s light and were either able to, I helped them get to a resource, or they found it on the website and they were able to get help.

And that’s just, like I said in my presentation, the first time that happened was like a month after we started the website, and that really solidified and made everything all worthwhile and everything we do from then on forever it’s worth it just for that one time where we maybe saved someone’s life or maybe saved a baby or at a minimum made a mom’s experience a lot better than it could have been.

Perinatal mood disorders are treatable. But first you have to ask for help.

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